When it comes to the decisions that truly matter, decisions that involve life or death, there may be various options available for your course of action, but there is only one choice that truly resonates with who you are. Theoretically, there are other possible responses to any given situation but there will always be just one that is uniquely in synch with you.
There is a power that comes from the act of choosing. Nobody can really tell you when or what to choose. Others can give their opinions and make recommendations or suggestions, but you’re the only one that really has the capacity to strive for a desired outcome. The consequences of your decisions will affect others, but you always have the opportunity to choose to act in accordance with your desired outcome.
The act of choosing brings conscious awareness of the unconscious desires of our innermost self. Making a choice means that you’re telling your brain what you want. But before you can get what you want, you first have to know what it is that you want.
During the initial stages of my paralytic illness, my body was in constant pain. At times it seemed unbearable. The intravenous narcotics offered me very little relief from my physical complaints. My condition was made insufferable by the unrelenting fever that continued for two weeks. Physically, I was in pain, but the fever made it almost impossible to feel comfortable. I was in such a bleak state physically, mentally and emotionally that the thought of enduring in these circumstances seemed tortuous. There were instances that I recall wishing that I would be put out of this suffering. But even though all I wanted in those moments was to be out of this grueling and seemingly endless predicament, there was force within me that would not allow me to give up.
At my weakest, I would randomly drift in and out of consciousness. While sometimes the temporary escape was welcome, at other times it felt as though I was falling uncontrollably into darkness or literally fading away. There was a moment that I remember having a deep understanding that I had a choice. I knew that I had to choose between life and death. I chose life. When I consciously made this decision I remember being very aware of my own inner strength and will.
Giving up was an option, but it was not the choice that resonated with my soul. I am here now because I chose to be. I made a conscious decision to do whatever it took to be here.
“Each choice we make causes a ripple effect in our lives. When things happen to us, it is the reaction we choose that can create the difference between the sorrows of our past and the joy in our future.” — Chelle Thompson